I once read that in Victorian times doctors would prescribe knitting to women with anxiety. They must have known that there was something about the repetitive motions of making stitches that eased the mind. Holding a beautiful skein of yarn and crochet hook in my own hands does that for me.
I began crocheting in the beginning of 2017 as a way to stop my constant worrying. One of my four beloved children has epilepsy and he was going through a very difficult time. Early in the morning of December 27, 2016, he had two seizures that changed our lives forever. He was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance and from that moment forward I was stuck in a pattern of worry, fear, and anxiety. I couldn’t stop the images of those seizures from coming into my mind and the “what if” thoughts.
I decided I needed a hobby, so naturally I went on Pinterest to find the perfect one. In the past I had tried quilting, sewing, tatting, and knitting to name a few. I enjoyed them all for different reasons, but to be completely honest I wasn’t good at any of them. But that night as I scrolled through Pinterest an image of a granny square crib afghan caught my eye. I clicked on the photo and was brought to a beautiful image that truly captivated me. I bought the pattern right then and there and decided I would figure it out as I went. That proved to be more difficult than I thought, but I was persistent. I jumped on YouTube and found a tutorial for how to make a granny square. From that point forward, I have been hooked, you could say.
The road from that point forward has not been easy for him or for our family. Since that time he has had hospital stays, doctor visits, and taken more pills than I can count. But crochet has been a sanity saver for me. Not only has it had a calming effect, but I am better able to care for my son because I am mentally healthier. Being a mom is the most important job in the world to me and crocheting helps me do that.